Don’t underestimate me.

This post was actually written a few months ago but I still wanted to post it. 🙂

It’s amazing to me how hard people work at trying to tear others down. I don’t understand it. I don’t see the point in making someone look bad, just to make myself look better. If people want to run me over so they can get ahead with that big yellow bus they’re driving, then I say bring it on. But, I’m not going to back down or go out without a fight when I did nothing wrong.

That’s what’s wrong with society. People aren’t true anymore. Most just try to get ahead no matter what and only look out for themselves, not realizing that if we all just worked together, they would get further than they ever knew was possible.  It’s very rare to actually find a good person in this world, so when you do, don’t let them go.

I used to let my emotions rule me, and as much as I hate to admit it, I let it happen at work (granted, I was going through a lot but I still shouldn’t have let it happen). But, I don’t anymore. It’s a job and it pays my bills, I do my work and go home. Yes, there are people who are stomping me into the ground as we speak because in my eyes they’re scared, when all I did was do my job. But you know what? Let them stomp me into the ground. What they’re doing to me, shows their true character, not mine. Maybe to some  that sounds like I’m weak, but I’m not. I’m still standing up for what it is right, but I’m approaching it in a different way. A more professional way than my superiors by far.

“Don’t mistake my kindness for weakness.”

Maybe I’ve grown in the last few months. Maybe I’ve seen what is truly important in life. I believe in good vibes and I definitely believe in karma. What’s meant to be will be and me stressing out, worrying and getting pissed off does nothing but make me miserable. So I quit. I threw it out in to the universe for someone else to grab on to, until they too realize it isn’t worth it.

This was a quote I found a few weeks ago when I felt like nothing was ever going to be made right.

“I hate the fact that some people get judged for being real while some are getting loved for being fake.”

Eventually the truth comes out though and the glass walls come crashing down. I know what is right and that’s what matters. I refuse to let someone bully me into becoming someone I’m not. Where before I would have cowered and ran away, I now stand my ground and use their hatred, rude comments and snickers to drive me on my journey.

I know what it’s like to deal with the “mean girls”. I had to in high school and I’m doing it once again and I’m 31 years old. But this time I’m stronger and this time I won’t back down. I’m wiser and I would like to thank them for pushing me to do my best, whether they realize it or not.

“In life you’ll meet two kinds of people. Ones who build you up and ones who tear you down. In the end, you’ll thank them both.”